It's been a while... Sometimes it's hard to put words to things, but this has been swimming around in my head for a while. This thing about love.
I remember when I was close to giving birth to our beautiful second born. There were quiet questions in the back of my mind. I wondered how on earth I could love two children with the same intensity. It takes your breath away...how much you love when your child is placed in your arms. There was such depth of love for my first born. Was I able to love like that again? I was so relieved to find that yes, indeed, I could. And I did. Our little Grace Marie was born and there it was. That depth. That intensity. That love. It's funny though, although my love for my two girls had the same depth and intensity, it was also very separate and unique for each of them. The same happened with our third born, although I wasn't quite so worried about it. By that time I knew my heart and soul would love her with that same, although unique, emotion.
But with our fourth, I worried again.
I knew I would love her. But would it be with that same intensity? Would she feel like mine? I wasn't going to give birth to this baby. So I worried. But only quietly. I prayed a lot about it. Asking God to bless us with a strong, quick attachment as mommy, daddy and sisters. I know there were others praying that for us too. I often asked Him to tie us together with strong ties of love, and then decided to leave it with Him. He had chosen this for our family and He would handle everything surrounding it.
As I rocked our fourth sweet girl the other day, I sat watching her face as she fell asleep in my arms, taking in all the little things she does as she drifts to sleep. I sat and marveled at how God has answered my prayers. Oh my, do I love this little girl. With that depth. That intensity. That love. With that unique way that's just for her.
And then it hit me... This is a picture of God's love for us.
If we have given our lives to follow Christ, we are God's adopted sons and daughters. And oh my, does He love us. With a depth and intensity that we can not even begin to fathom! There is NO difference in His love for His Son Jesus and His love for us. None.
Hallelujah!
