Blown Away

I'm not sure how this post is going to turn out. My mind is completely jumbled and blank all at the same time.

It was quite the mixture of emotions this Mother's Day weekend. On Saturday we found out that my mom has cancer. It's in one of her glands that produces saliva; she's having surgery to remove it later this month, and it appears that will take care of it. But still, you hear the word "cancer" and your mom in the same sentence. . . . I'm not sure if I'm avoiding it or just taking it for what it is right now. Right now, it doesn't appear to be life threatening. So, I chose to put off thinking about it too much until the weekend was over. We still haven't told the girls, or even decided how much or when to tell them. I don't want to cause fear when it might not be necessary, yet they'll have their own process they need to go through and I don't want to take that away from them. But, for tonight, they'll sleep without worrying about Nana.

Sunday morning I woke up with the birth mother of our future baby on my mind. I prayed for her and for her family. I can't imagine what it would be like to go through a Mother's Day carrying a child you know you're not going to raise. I prayed the Lord would give her the grace and strength she needed to get through the day.
(Note: I am going under the assumption that the birth mother is already pregnant and our baby is already growing inside her. We have not been selected by a birth mother or know who she might be yet.:))

Then at church we received an amazing blessing. There was an anonymous gift given to us that covers more than what we need to finish paying for the rest of our home study! I looked at Cory and all I could say was, "Are you kidding me?!" I could barely say that - there was such a lump in my throat. Happy Mother's Day to me, right?! :)

My goodness we have an amazing church family! They have supported us and given to us in so many ways (and not just during this adoption process). But there are people who are still calling us, offering things for our garage sale, offering to help me set up, giving us what we need for signs and tables, letting us take over both of their garages to have the sale in for crying out loud! All for the love of one child. To help bring a little person none of us have ever met into it's family. To show the love of Christ - the very gospel of Christ - not only to this child, but to it's birth family and God knows who else. I am amazed. Blown away. There are no words to express my gratitude. When this part of the journey is all said and done, each of you will have played a part in bringing His light into a dark place. Thank you.