The Only Safe Place

How do you know where to put your heart? When you're waiting, wondering, on the edge of hearing that a little one born just a few weeks ago might be your child. Or not.

Where is a safe place for your heart?

I'm discovering that this is one of the hardest parts of this point in our adoption. As we wait for that child that God has chosen for our family, I struggle with how much to let my heart go. There is a specific child God has chosen for our family. Since the beginning of time He has had this one picked out for us, just as He has chosen each of the girls.

So how much of my heart do I give to each of the precious little ones He brings along our path on the way to finding that one? Each one of them deserves to be loved. Fully. Completely.

We are convinced that our job, our purpose, in each one of these wonderful little lives that gets brought before us, is to pray for them. Oh what an amazing gift we have in prayer! And what an amazing Father we have to go to! We have had the privilege now of very specifically and fervently praying two little boys into their forever families. But these boys weren't mine to love in that special way that only their mama can.

In the midst of praying for them - waiting to find out if they are mine - my heart becomes attached. These sweet boys are forever written in my heart and memory.

What would your heart do with that?

I wouldn't change it for anything. Even through the pain, the disappointment, and the tears. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was my purpose in their lives. 

But the question still remains, where is the safe place for my heart? Where is the safe place for your heart as you wait on the Lord for something He has promised?

Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."